|Friday, 2005-05-27, 08:52:24 pm, @home
Haven't written for a long time. Okay, this site
was down for a long time, too.
So: here I am!
Am I able to recall what was going on the last
few months? No, I don't think so. So, the least I
can do is to start all over again. To cover the
moment, just as I did before.
But before what? Before I felt to have to take
this site down in order to think some certain
I realized, I'm not through with my mom's death.
It's very much harder to get on with it than I
thought. I miss her.
I realized, I made mistakes in the past and I
still have failures right now - and I will have
in the future.
I realized (once again), life ain't easy.
But in the end I realized one special thing in
particular: true, deep and honest love might be
the greatest gift on Gods earth.
I'm not an easy person, my dear neither is. That
doesn't make our life very simple, but it works -
and it works very well, indeed.
Apparently endless moments of joy and fun,
wonderful hours together with those awesome kids
and my gorgeous dear - that's what made me come
alive again, what brought me back my original
strength and makes me keep my head up high.
Since weeks, I'm able to be on my own again, to
live my life again and to remain strong.