|Monday, 2004-09-20, 02:34:58 pm, @work
Oh my fuckin' Goddess!
As amazed as I felt Friday night ('cause I then
expected some things to work fine), so shocked and
down I felt on Saturday. Things happened, I'd
never again anticipated to happen. Another
showdown yesterday in the early afternoon - okay,
the whole afternoon. Hours and hours of an
apparently neverending situation of stupidity and
foolishness. Talks and cynical laughter, uncried
tears and lots of shaken heads.
I already knew it to come last Thursday, so I led
some certain things into their proper ways. First
step automatically happend some minutes ago, at
2pm. Next step I assume to happen this late
afternoon. I'm thinking about to check it, but I
guess I don't have to.
Got a call from a former classmate last week,
actually he wanted to make an appointment to sell
me some insurance-stuff. I told him to come over
this evening, but I really ain't free in my mind
for that bullshit. So I just called him up and
cancelled that meeting, telling him I were busy,
having other things to think about.
Even though not really funny I had to smile about
the following for a tenth of a second or so: he
immediately asked me what was wrong, he said I
really, really didn't sound okay, he even told me
I sounded damn decayed. I tried to be as normal as
usual, just wanted to cancel that appointment, I
must have had a certain undertone in my voice -