|Tuesday, 2004-03-16, 10:35:33 pm, @home
Together alone - not lonely by chance
First in seven nights not sharing the bed with a
head full of alcohol or accompanied by someone.
And it's okay. Having such a great time, feeling
good in my mind and concurrently guilty in my
heart for not being able to help that certain
person who gave me all the love all my life; I'm
simply not in the position to help, it makes me
teary and even tearier.
The only thing to deal with all this situation is
to gather all the strength and warmth of the
lovely people surrounding me most of the time. I
am so incredibly thankful, even (or especially?)
for the one spending the nights with
And I'm even thankful for being able to bundle
all my enormous hate. I'm dealing with that my
own way and one day will come when I do what I
have to do.