|Sunday, 2004-02-01, 02:13:50 am, @home
Though constantly crying for more than six hours
now, I can barely shed a tear, maybe because I
didn't drink anything since Friday. And
furthermore though I cannot breath correctly,
because I've got to choke again and again, I
can't vomit anything, maybe because I didn't eat
anything for more than 36 hours now - where
nothing's inside, there can't anything come
I haven't been alone the past four hours. I
alternately felt more than great and more than
even worse. Got the information I wanted, which
was more than I needed.
Feeling lucky, feeling sad, gotta think about it.
Actually, I cannot look ahead nor back or around.
There're just spots of light and darkness
circling around in my mind and my confused
universe. When will a friendly sun light up my
life again? What will it look and be and feel
What am I supposed to do?